Everyone probably has a story similar to this one, but you could say I fell in love once. This idea of love since then has seemed not of my interest because of Eraser. See I did the tragic mistake, fall in love with a very close friend. What makes it even worse is finding out I had a chance with her, and I left it slip me by. Our friendship lasted 5 years to this point, and yes for most of that time I was in love with her. It just seemed every time I got the courage up to do something about my feelings she had a new boyfriend. A fatal mistake, allowing the friend zoning to happen.
Supposedly she had no idea up until I straight up ended the friendship and explained how I felt. Well I gave the friendship a summer after telling her, but again she had a boyfriend at the time. I went to her one night near the end of summer to tell her it was over, and I didn’t want to see her again. It took a lot for me to do it, but I couldn’t stand being around her but not being with her. The worst thing about it, and what I have ironically turned my views into, was that she didn’t understand the big thing about being in a relationship. She felt I meant more to her than any of her boyfriends. She honestly believed that all a relationship was, was having someone you could fool around with. Ironically now that is all I look to most of my own relationships. I actually found it funny talking to her that night, because she said I was one of the few people who actually knew her, and how she couldn’t understand me being about to like her knowing all that. I don’t really regret anything that happened though, because looking at how she viewed relationships, I knew I could never have a genuine relationship with her and it was better that we just stopped talking. She could have even offered to dump her boyfriend and try it out with me, but after 5 years, I was done. Some of you will say that it was a stupid idea, but I had to make a decision. Besides I honestly believe now that if you have any form of attraction to a girl you can’t be just friends with her. I could keep going on about Eraser, but you all get the just of it…. For now.
*Pointer* Be able to take the consequences associated with your actions. I once fooled around with an ex’s best friend no less than a month after breaking up with her, and I had to deal with the shit storm that followed. So if you cheat on the person you’re in a relationship with (something I am extremely against, yes I will fool around with an ex’s best friend but will never cheat on a girlfriend), or something along the same lines, take responsibility. Being drunk is not an excuse either, because as a wise friend told me, a drunken man’s actions are just a sober man’s thoughts.
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